When I don't, it surprises me and I grapple with it for awhile internally. Somehow, I work out a way to understand. Some things I just can't do anything about. I loved the year and all the things I did. It was a treat and it just keeps paying off.
I got out and met some big stars too. I found they are not so different. They are talented and motivated. They are lucky enough to have others think money can be made by being a part of their lives. It's a matter of degree I guess. Makes me want to keep going. I have talent too and I have passions as much as they do.